FEAR...

Ok...so I guess that is what is holding me back! I never thought I was one with low self esteem, but I guess I am. When you diet and make strides, then start going back to your bad habits, is that sabotage? When I was "thinner" in my 20's I guess I was looking for more then love in all the wrong places...now that I have made a committment to weight loss and a healthy lifestyle...why in the world would I go back to my bad habits? FEAR! Ok...so I am not afraid to say it! I didn't like who I was when I was thin..."thin" for me as 142 at high school graduation. I was not a nice person, I was shallow, I feel for me that is NOT who I want to be! I want to be a better ME...I all around...weight, nice person, God loving over all a good person...and most of all HEALTHY! So that being said...I was up a pound today...man did that make me mad...I knew that I was going to be up...I just feel like I can't eat enough...how many fruits and veggies can you eat...well, I am not eating enough! So tomorrow is a new day...That is how I have to look at...or I will quit...and I don't want that to happen! So once again...I have opened up to you all...who ever you are that is reading this...if you are reading it...please don't judge me! Hugs and blessings!